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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:01

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I don,t even have a pension.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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It was going to be , some day.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

What causes you to be tired all the time and major headaches?

But it wasn’t much.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She wouldn,t have been !

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

So, i spoilt her more .

I could never make a relationship work though!

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All the time i was locked up.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Do you remember one day, you put a deep smile on someone's face and made them very happy?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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She loved him until the end.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

This is soul school!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im still living with it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Would this be the day?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He knew the spot.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She found it foreign!.

I have no regrets .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was very sick at this time too.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I never cut or harmed myself..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Ive learnt so much.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I write beautiful poetry .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

One cannot live in the past .

We were not on the streets..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I think the readers, may guess!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But, we were locked up after school.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I said to her

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And i lived it daily.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So whats the point in blame.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She was in good health!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My family never makes their pension either.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She married twice! .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was seconnd youngest,

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

What did i know ?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Who then, do I blame.?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Put me off passion for life!!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My life is so biszare .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We all went to grammer schools

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I waited trembling.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was scared of men, in general

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was 9 years of age.

He resisted the act ,that day.

When she asked me how she looked .

I will be 64.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

(And it was in our own minds.)